The Cake My Niece Pushed Off The Table

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On Friday afternoon she had five envelopes.

Her dance teacher, a woman named Brenda who runs the studio above the old shoe store downtown, takes the camp deposits for the girls who got in. I drove Chloe there after our shift, still in her kennel clothes.

I stayed by the door.

Chloe walked up to the counter by herself and counted it out. Fifteen twenties and five fives, flattened one at a time on the glass.

“That’s my deposit,” she said. “I earned it.”

Brenda looked over the top of her glasses at me, and then at Chloe, and wrote out the receipt in Chloe’s name. Not Christy’s. Not mine.

The balance was due in June. I had already decided what I would do about that, and I had already decided not to say so yet. Chloe asked if she could keep coming Saturdays. I said the kennels would still be dirty.

In the truck she said, “Can I ask for one more thing? It’s not money.”

“Go ahead.”

“Can I use your kitchen tomorrow?”

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She was at my door at nine the next morning with a grocery sack. A box of yellow cake mix. A tub of white frosting. A little four pack of food coloring. She had bought them herself at the Kwik Trip with what was left of her own Christmas money.

Luke hung back in the hallway when he saw her. He stood half behind the door frame with one hand on it.

Chloe set the sack on the counter. Then she did something I had not told her to do and would not have thought to. She got down on the kitchen floor, cross legged on the linoleum, so that she was lower than he was.

“Luke,” she said. “I wrecked your cake on purpose. I was mad at somebody else and I took it out on you, because you were littler than me. That’s about the worst reason there is.”

He studied her.

“It wasn’t a baby cake,” she said. “It was a really good tractor. I’m sorry I made your birthday bad.”

Luke considered this for a long moment with all the gravity of seven.

“I didn’t get to show Grandma the wheels,” he said.

“I know. I can’t fix that. But I’m going to try to make you one. It might be ugly.”

“Can I crack the eggs?”

“You can crack every egg.”

It took them most of the morning. There was shell in the batter. The green came out closer to the color of pond water, and the tractor Chloe drew on top with a butter knife had wheels of two different sizes and a cab that leaned.

Luke stood on the step stool and looked it over.

“It’s a frog tractor,” he announced.

Chloe covered her face. “It’s so bad.”

“No. I like it. It’s a frog that’s a tractor.” He looked up at me, lit from the inside. “Mom. Get the candles.”

I had saved them. All seven, in a sandwich bag in the junk drawer, with a little chocolate still dried on the ends. I do not know why I kept them. I think some part of me was waiting.

I had invited my mother and my sister both. I told them eleven thirty.

My mother came. She stood in my kitchen doorway in her church coat and took in the lopsided green cake, and her granddaughter with frosting to the elbows, and her grandson bouncing on a step stool.