The hall smelled like hot oil and coffee, and my son was already bouncing on the balls of his feet before we got through the door. Eli was eight that October. He had not stopped moving since May.
I had a hand on his shoulder, steering him toward the long tables, when Royce came around the serving line with a ladle in his fist and stopped us cold.
“He stays by you,” my father-in-law said. He was not looking at me. He was looking down at Eli. “I mean it, Wade. He sits, or he waits in the truck.”
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The game feed was the biggest night the sportsman’s club put on all year. Venison chili, smoked goose, a roaster of wild rice, and two hundred people on folding chairs under the deer mounts. Royce had run that kitchen for nineteen years. In that room, on that night, he was a king, and everybody treated him like one.
Eli went quiet under my hand. That was the part that got me.
My boy, who could not hold still through grace, went still as a fence post.
He knew what the truck meant. He had sat in the truck before, at Christmas, at Easter, any time the room got too full of him for Royce.
He looked up at me to see what I was going to do about it. I did not have an answer yet. So I steered him on toward the tables and told myself it would be fine.
The Boy Who Could Not Sit
I need to tell you about Eli first, or none of the rest of it lands right.
He was born in a hurry and he had been in a hurry ever since. The doctor in Grand Rapids had a long word for it, and my wife Dana had a shorter one. She called him our live wire. He was kind. He was the first kid to help an old man carry a cooler. He just could not make his body wait.
School was a daily fight we mostly lost. Church was twenty minutes of me with my arm around him like a seatbelt. We had learned, over eight years, that the way through Eli was not to sit him down harder. It was to give him a job. Hand him a task and he would work until his legs gave out.
Dana’s family never learned that, and they never tried. To them he was the grandkid who knocked over the lemonade. The one you watched sideways. The one who made Thanksgiving loud.
Royce was the worst of them. My father-in-law was a flint-eyed man who had run a dozer for the county for thirty years and believed that a child was a problem you solved with a firm voice. He had raised Dana and her brother that way, and it had worked on them, and he could not understand a boy it did not work on.
“There is nothing wrong with that kid a good hard chair would not fix,” he told me once, in his garage, over a beer I did not finish.
I had bitten my tongue that day. I had been biting my tongue for nine years.