He never said one word to me about Hadley. Not in five and a half years. I took it for loyalty, or the manners of an old man who does not interfere. I was grateful. I do not like to be argued with.
Every June fourteenth he stepped out the back door to take a phone call. I figured it was his sister in Missoula.
Sometimes he looked at the third stand the way you check that a sleeping dog is still breathing. I noticed all of it and put not one thing together.
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On the first Thursday of this October, I was at the back bench with a pair of rein ends that needed new stitching. It was cold, and my hands were curling the way they do.
Dewitt had been quiet all morning. About ten, he took off his reading glasses and set them down careful, the way he does before something he wants to give his whole eye to.
“Thora,” he said. “I live over the feed store.”
“I know where you live.”
“My kitchen window looks straight at that back window. I can see the lamp from my table.” He cleared his throat. “First Sunday of every month, since the June she left. I counted last night. Sixty-five times.”
I put the awl down. I did not look at him.
“I never said a word,” Dewitt said. “It was not mine to break. But I’ll tell you something else, since I’m telling. I’ve called that girl every June fourteenth. Her birthday. Every year since.”
I could not feel my own hands.
“I’d say, happy birthday, kid. Then I’d say two words. Still oiled.” He folded his glasses and put them in his shirt pocket. “She asked me not to tell you I called. So I didn’t. But I did not figure it was mine to lie either, so I said nothing, and I kept calling.”
My first feeling was fury. I wanted to throw a seventy-four year old man with one good eye out of my own shop. He had watched my shame through a window sixty-five times and never once let me know.
Then I looked at his face. He had not said it to hurt me. He said it the way Everett used to set down a tool, carefully, in the spot where it belonged.
The fury went out of me like air. What came in behind it was worse.
“Why now?” I said.
“Because I’m seventy-four,” said Dewitt. “And because that lamp has been telling her a thing for five and a half years that you have never said out loud. I think it’s time somebody said it where it can be heard.”